Straight back into the swing
May 28th, 2005After some good fun, amazing food, and an incredible/surreal experience down in Montevideo, I said goodbye to Lisa and hopped on the for the first of three flights in my return leg to Seattle. It was sad to leave. It was the end of an era in my life. I’m returning to start my new job in less than a week and a half, with a to do list with things like, “move into new place,” and “aquire car.”
Things didn’t really hit me until I was walking around Washington Dulles airport on a lay over. Suddenly I could understand all the conversations around me, easily talk to anyone, and able to read all the books sold in the airport mini-bookstores. In fact, it was really weird speaking English to the cashier when I stopped to buy a Coke. The things that defined my lifestyle, adventures, and comfortability with the uncomfortable for the last 130 days were done and gone. And I missed it so much already. I found my hearing drawn toward conversations in Spanish and Chinese, grasping at straws of difference and difficulty in a sea of complete comprehension.
When the plane flew within sight of Mt. Rainier, my heart sank and my eyes were momentarily misty. I was back. Around the world in 130 days.
Amazingly enough, it seems that my reverse culture shock was limited to the hour and a half I was in Washington D.C., because as soon as I stepped off that plane it was back to life as usual. It was even a little scary–as I progressed through the day I could feel my old methods, feelings, and lifestyle emerging instinctively. Is this what it means to be home? It was a little scary and I can’t say I want them back. I know that I grew and changed a lot on my trip and I expected that I would need some time to integrate and readjust.
And it’s not just my surroundings, it’s also what I do. I ran some errands with Uncle Ben and we stopped by Costco (no surprise there) and he asked me if I knew where they had contact lens solution. My answer, given without possibly of doubt, just sprung right out of me. Things like knowing the best places to park, what streets to take to avoid traffic, and familiarity with the bends in the road are still second-nature to me. A huge change from always walking around in unfamilar cities, where I’d see something new every day, surrounded by a culture, language, and people I was trying to hard to see, understand, and experience. Now I’m back. I am the culture, language, and people.
I can already tell that my brain processes have switched modes. Reading Argentinian version of Google News this morning, I found my attention span to be short and felt slight bits of frustration with my comprehension. I can tell already. I’m far too comfortable.
I want to be knocked off-balance again.
